at my worst times I wish I never existed.. how to deal with this?

I don't always feel this way, but it is like this is me and I just get distracted or busy from this till it hits again. I have nothing to live for (and not in a sad depressed way) just a fact I have nothing and no one to live for, if I drop dead right now nothing would change just like my existence is pointless. Nothing is that interesting in life to put up with all of it, I look at people and think to myself i am either the smartest or the dumbest, how do they find it in themselves to keep going when it is all pointless and it is all meant to happen anyway, yes we get to seek and pursue things but it is just formalities and how life seems to us but in reality it is all destiny. I feel like life is a card game we are dealt a hand to "play" that game of life "choose" or moves and all but at the end the choice is limited maybe nonexistence if we are to say that we are made believe that we are making a choice yet in reality the end result is predecided (yeah yeah we don't know how it ends which should keep us playing wishing/ hoping to win) but this is the issue it isn't enough to get me going in life anymore, specially that it is a possibility that I might lose, so why keep up with all this?

I always wish I never existed and that was my second-best option after wanting to commit suicide and having the idea take over me for a long time, I tried being more religious, being a better muslim and it worked for a while I wasn't suicidal but then it became worse than before I keep thinking how I could be grateful for my existence when I never wanted it to happen. I tell myself that I can't be this way or think this way and I am here in this life for a reason even if I don't know it or maybe I never will .. but again, this isn't enough I have no hopes in life, I have no reason to make it out of bed, I am silent most of the time, I don't know how to fight this anymore.

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First, you are not living in a simulation, or a "game of life"! You are living in a real world, that has been meticulously designed for a purpose. Everything that exists in this universe is there for ...


I read all your answers. Usually I felt same as you, but it's gone in the end any way because there is a big different between what we believe an what we feel, the process begin from our mind and beli...


Let me take it from your prospective Now.....while it's a game and you are already in .....why to miss all the fun ...even if the fun to challenge yourself to discover this game in this world....and t...


This is what Artificial Intelligence (ChatGPT) could say to you: I'm sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult time. It sounds like you are struggling with a lot of conflicting emotion...

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I have been there, maybe till now but It's going better than before, just forbid your brain from thinking by Its own, keep It busy, read books, play puzzles or listen to a story from YouTube, It's what It is and what's done is done, keep going, and I will keep doing the same till I feel better. And the most effective way for you to get better is to accept what you're feeling, that you're lost and confused, tell yourself it's okay to feel that way, and accept it, what you're feeling is just a part of you, you don't resist it, you learn how to live with it, by keeping your mind busy like i mentioned above. Best of luck

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